Do you ever just feel disgusted with your life? I mean, just totally disgusted? No matter how many wonderful blessings you have, somehow, you just sorta wanna vomit? I've been feeling that way lately. I'm not sure if it's because things are sort of uncertain (as in, I can't see the future and really really wish I could), if it's because I'm jealous of things going on in other people's lives, or if I'm just simply bored. It's probably a mix of them all. 2014 is here. Brandon's work is currently unsteady, lots of exciting things are happening to those around me, and I realized that in only 6 short months, I will be 30. Gross. And to top it off...I don't feel like I ever went through that point where I was totally cute and my life was totally fun. Here I am, pinching pennies, living in constant practicality, being a responsible adult, and still have acne. What's with that anyway?
The thing is...it's never gonna be enough. There will always be something shinier that I can't buy. There will always be clothes that could make me cuter. There will always be fun adventures that I simply can't go on. What it boils down to, or what is needs to boil down to, is that that's OK. Things don't have to be perfect. They just need to be good enough for me.
In her song, Tennessee, Mindy Smith says:
"Tennessee, you've been good to me
Yes, I've come to believe you're where I wanna be
You may not be what everybody needs
but Tennessee, you're good enough for me."
So here's the thing, Nicole's Life....you've been good to me and you're where I wanna be. You may not be what everybody needs, but you're good enough for me.
"Why am I discouraged? Why is my heart so sad? I will put my hope in God! I will praise him again--
my Savior and my God!" Psalm 42:5,6a NLT